Mother’s Day (Insight)

Mother’s Day is dark, an alternate timeline where I actually did kill myself. I’ve battled with suicidal thoughts since I was a teenager, you may have noticed by now, but it’s a common theme for a lot of my material. I had a few techniques for helping me get through the days. A common one I would do was think of things I was looking forward to: new video games, movies or albums that I needed to experience before I died. That being said, escaping into a game or other form of media helped me live in a reality that wasn’t my own. On my worst days though, I would imagine my mother finding my body, the look on her face and the anguish she would feel in that moment. As dark as it may be, that is what helped me pull through. This poem is the embodiment of that idea, what if I really did do it? Every day I’m glad I didn’t. I hope you enjoy reading Mother’s Day by Daniel Peiffer.