Past The Point of No Return

I’m in the darkest place possible,

Revisiting the Void a decade later

Everything echoes

Still can’t tell a knife from a lifeline

Still a coward that’s died a thousand times

Gutted like a fucking pumpkin

My karma finally caught up to me

My circle is so small it turned into a period

Sentenced to social paralysis

I guess you reap what you sow,

So no reason to gloat,

About moving through seasons alone

Mom I wish I paid attention in school

Dad I wish I could make you proud

Babe I wish I never let you down

Sis I wish I never said those words

Wish I was in my nephew’s lives

Man I still wish I was dead

That feeling never goes away

I’m happy like Robin Williams

The Monster in my Closet just keeps coming back

The devil watches me and I just stare at him back

I can feel myself unraveling,

Time-traveling back to the man I ran away from

The only thing I fear is myself,

And that I’ll actually never change

Writer’s block only if I no longer feel pain

My mind trapped inside a steel cage

My past transgressions have sealed fate

The Devil’s in my dreams with a teal face

I stole the red like an ideal ape

Fire all around me but I feel great

Comfortable at my worst

I let the Void get the best of me,

And those I love get the rest of me

Suicidal thoughts like ecstasy

My ambitions can rest with me

I am nothing

I am, The Void